I’m real…I’m raw

This entry is about my pain.  We all experience pain.  To be honest, I would much rather deal with physical pain than emotional pain.  Any way, I’ll share this with you.

My Pain

I have once heard it said, that you should not write from a place of pain.

Well, I guess I should not write at all.  Because pain is all I feel right now.

Pain so deep that I cannot comprehend…why I am still here.

I feel the need to share; to let others know.  The pain is real.

Sometimes all I have is silence.  Sometimes I mask the pain.

Sometimes it is written all over my face.

Sometimes I feed it, breathe it, and sometimes I cannot bear it.

This pain…sometimes I do not think I can carry it.

Sometimes I am numb to it.  I do not feel it.  Sometimes I wonder; God? Why don’t you steal it?

Away.  This pain…just make it go…away.

To Do List

My “to do” list consists of a variety of things.  Things that seem necessary to remember at the time.  Get the oil changed in the car.  Put the empty water bottles out.  Check the mail.  Pay the bills.  Go to the grocery store.  Make a hair appointment.  Take son to get a haircut.  Put in for time off at work.  Reschedule meeting with child’s teacher.  Water plants (they are dying).  Finish craft project.

These are just some of the things on my list, but one day I added three things right in the middle of my list that caught me off guard. Continue reading

Jump In!

You didn’t get off on the wrong foot.  You are not a failure.  It’s not too late.  Keep the faith.  Don’t give up.  Everything will be alright.  Take a leap of faith.  Follow your heart.  Live your dreams.  Jump in! Even the best of the best make mistakes.  Nobody is perfect.  Everyone has doubted themselves at one time or another.  You can’t give up on yourself.  Please don’t.  Take one day at a time.  This is simple, but I am sure that someone needs to hear this.  Jump in! You don’t realize how great you are now but you have to keep pushing to find out.  You can be as good as the greatest if you jump into your purpose and follow through.  I’m jumping in and following through with my dreams.  I will not quit.  I will not allow temporary discomfort to permanently cancel my destiny and you shouldn’t either.  Jump in!